Ham’s Journal

26th Feb 2007

Its the Festive Season of Chinese New Year and over the weekend I have spent much of my weekend with my family. I woke up on Sat morning and started to ask myself… i am turning 27 and what have i done with my life? I am pretty sure alot of us go through this phase (some everyday… some periodically) but my hunch is that at any given time of our lives, we would have asked ourselves this question.

I have added a new philosophy in my life :-

"…

You cant control every outcome but you can control how many times you try. Obstacles are put in your way for 2 reasons:-

1) To assure you that what you are doing is worthwhile

2) To assure the universe or a higher power beyound that you are the one worth doing it

… "

So i pondered throughtout the weekend.. worried(which i rarely do) but finally realized that as long as i try and keep on telling myself that each and everyday i try abit harder, I will definetely achieve fulfillment at some given point in life. I cant control fate but I can least ensure that i ride the path of my destiny the correct way.

That my thoughts currently. Thats what i am thinking of right now.

What I feel right now? Well i feel great as I have realized that there is a person in my life who makes me want to be a better person everytime I wake up. It might be a phase… it might be forever but one thing is for sure… just before I met this realization, i was drifting into a comfort zone and then suddenly Boom, i want to strive for more, I want to ensure that every single day I wake up with a smile on my face and that I know the sun will always rise in the morning no matter what and most importantly I build my character to be a betterman for with this person, at least I have found a reason to push myself, to build on something and to know that sometimes in life risks are worth taking.

Regards Ham